TESTIMONIUM

Let this be my testimony to you, that He protected me in my defenselessness - gave me strength in my weakness - gave me grace in my spitefulness - gave me words in my speechlessness - gave me salvation in my sinfulness - gave me rest in my restlessness - gave me knowledge in my stupidity - gave me everything in my nothingness and healed me in my brokenness. He and He alone sustains me. I am solely His. And when the time comes that He deems it bad for me to be alone, He shall provide that which I lack and that for which I was created to please, comfort, know, cherish, and love.

To that God I shall trust my future.

I thank you for her beauty, Lord, though I have not seen her at that time. That beauty which is yours alone to bestow, for to You all beauty must be described, for you alone are beautiful. All color. All light. All things wonderful. I thank you for that reflection of yourself in her.

I thank you for her calming spirit, Lord, though I have yet to taste its sweetest delight. That spirit that which can only come from You, Christ my King, in exact and wholesome beauty,which empowers and emboldens your Kingdom, myself included, for to You all softness and loveliness, gentleness and mercy owe their existence.

I thank You for her strength and justice, Father, which You lent her in her hour of need. Which reprimands and draws me closer to you, even though I stray from your face.

I thank you for forming her to my eyes' delight that I might behold Your reflection deep in her eyes, which compel me to worship your perfection.

I thank you, Lord, for her, not that I receive all these benefits from her, but that you would allow such wondrous and perfectly fallen beauty in this realm, at that time, in that place. I thank you that you have created a being such that I might serve you by serving her, revived to my service by the overwhelming, simplistic virtues that you so perfectly inscribed on her. Whenever I meet her, whether in past or in future, Father I have full confidence that you will reveal her to me as the one for which I was created to serve, to provide for as you provide for me, to love as you love me, and to walk with until the end of my days.

I trust myself to you, Lord, written this public place not that others would see me in new light, but that they might hold me to this charge which you have put on my heart.

- Sci